Keep calm, and carry on

How do you breathe when the lump in your throat is choking you? How do put your baby to sleep when you have only gotten to see her for three hours? How does your heart continue to beat when the reason it beats isn't with you?

I am not the first, and I know I won't be the last broken hearted mom to return to work. That doesn't mean that it hurts any more, or any less. It just plain hurts. You think it will progressivly get better, but it doesn't. You think you will stop tearing up for no reason other than you just wondered if they were awake yet, but you don't.

How do you put one foot in front of the other?

 or even better....

because my sense of humor has not yet been completely damaged :-)

On the bright side, it is Thursday tomorrow. Which means only two more work days, and Greys.

That is all.